Dessert was totally Western and odd one out of the rest of the dishes. But still yummy. Doesn't this look gooooood? There's even a piece of real gold on it. Gold taste like nothing anyways...



I finally got around to watching 1Litre of Tears. It's said to promise alot of crying and of course, it was no exception for me. From the middle of episode 2, I cried non-stop all the way to the end of the drama series. Sometimes it is merely tears rolling off, other times it's outright crying hard. I alternated between them and there was not a single dry moment. Each time my tears attempted to dry up, there would another thing to make me cry again. A simple sentence, a simple act....they were enough to make me drop tears over and over again. There were times when I simply had to pause the show to bawl my eyes out before continuing because I couldn't watch the show with a teary vision. 1 litre of tears...I'm sure the litre beaker would have overflowed with my tears. I definitely cried more than a litre.

Based on a true story, my heart really aches for Aya and her loved ones. Things that she could do became limited as time went by. I remembered when she said she was afraid of time. One day she would wake up and find out that she hasn't got enough strength in her legs to stand on her own feet anymore. Another day passes and she would realise that people don't seem to understand what she struggles to say anymore. Basic rights such as schooling is also taken away from her. She asked if she could get married...Ikeuchi Aya in the drama has got her Haruto Asou who is always there for her and loves her even when she's in that state. In reality, Kitou Aya has to struggle with Spinocerebellar Ataxis alone...only with her family. She was only 15 and she has to bear with all the pain, all the strange looks from others, hearing that her siblings having to endure teasing from others. She wants to help others when she grows up because she is always getting help from others. But there was nothing she can do. All she could do was write...write till she could no longer hold a pen, till she had to grasp the marker with both palms and scribble a thank you (or arigatou in this case) with much effort. Because of her writing, she did help many. Her words were encouragement, an inspiration to many even to this day. Aya in the drama had her classmates sending her off when they themselves did not want her in school when they see her as a burden but Aya in reality wrote that she wished they had said "Aya-chan, don't leave" instead.

Socrates claimed that human beings cannot learn anything new because what is there to be learnt is already in the soul and when we think that we are learning something new, we're merely recollecting. If this is so, why hasn't anyone recollected the cure for such a cruel disease? To have a conscious mind like anyone else out there and yet be trapped in a body that don't seem to belong to you. You can't control your own body at all, to the point of even choking on food or even choking on your own saliva. When my mum told me that Chew Chor Meng could hardly walk during the Star Awards, I wanted to cry for him as well.

Why does such beautiful people like Aya have to go through all this pain and leave the world this soon? Perhaps God wants these amazing people by his side and took them away prematurely... but it is still so unfair! So unfair that they have to go through such torture in order to show their strength and beauty. So unfair that despite being so brave, their disease still continue to progress, slowly but surely.

Thinking about the show makes me flood my laptop with tears again. I'm scared that sparks might come shooting out from between the keyboard keys. I may be 30 years too late in saying this but... Aya-chan, gambatte!

I love the songs used in the drama, especially Only Human by K. The melody is so sad and the lyrics so aptly written. And the story is so beautiful and touching. I recommend those with tears to spare to watch the drama. I'm sorry if the video contains spoilers.