HER LURFES ♥
Beauty. the schnauzer =))
Piggy Slave
Her family & friends
Strawberries!!!!!
Quincy the bass
My laptop
Omnia!
HER WANTS ♥
shopping spree!
guitar strap
HER MEMORIES ♥
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
May 2009
CHATTERBOX ♥
DARLINKS ♥
+ 101 Schnauzers
+Abigail
+ Adele
+ Adlin
+ Alex
+ Cherlyn
+ Davis
+ Denise
+ Eugene
+ Fizah
+ Gloria
+ Grace K.
+ Isebelle
+ Izhar
+ Jasmine
+ Jing Fang
+ Jia Ying
+ Jing Huang
+ Jonathan
+ Jolie
+ Khyrul
+ Mabel
+ Maggie
+ Michael
+ Michelle
+ Ningyi
+ Sharon
+ Siew Cheng
+ Steph
+ Vanessa
+ Weitian
+ Xinni
+ XinYi
+ Yiwei
+ Zhihan
+ Zuwei
+ Barbarian Dict.
Sushi Addict ♥
Woah. I haven't blogged for like....an entire month? Each time I thought to myself that I wanna blog about this or wanna talk about that, it'll slip my mind off completely when I finally get to use my beloved com at night. Evenings are my only time of rest and escape from the harsh reality. Sigh.
School is overall okay but I hate it. Seriously, I've never detested school this much because school in the past is where you actually learn something and know what you have to know, be with your friends, and make new friends. Life in university is just....sucky. I travel 2 hours to school everyday just for the heck of it. True, I'm damn lucky to get all my desired modules - Psychology, Sociology, Southeast Asia studies, English and French but I have not an inkling as to what I'm supposed to learn, or how I'm supposed to do my assignments and study for the exams, which are a couple of months away. My days are just spent feeling lost and alone, end school late in the evening, or just head off for tuition lessons with my students if I end early. Lots of assignments coming up which I have no idea what to do, stuff that happens and my "friends" don't bother telling me about, and my mum's health is possibly in danger...everything just depresses me. I just hope things turn for the better.
On a happier note, tomorrow's Teachers' Day! None of my teachers actually read my blog (or at least I hope so) but I would still like to express my heartfelt thanks to all of them, from Primary school to JC. They are the ones who allowed me to be who I am now and I'm grateful to all the lessons, help and opportunities they've given me. Mrs Poh actually gave me a red packet on Thursday for teachers' day....now I feel really bad about it. She's like the sweetest lady ever, always extremely hospitable and grateful for my efforts to teach her son despite me getting paid for it. Trevor says I might even be teaching his sister next year! Lol! If I am, I think I'll offer to help Trevor at the same time for free....I think I should be able to handle Sec 1 work eh?
Saturday was spent at Singapore Indoor Stadium for training. 7
Friday was a stupid Psych tutorial right smack in the middle of the day at 2-4pm, ruining my day of rest. Thank goodness it's only on alternate weeks. After that was rushing down to Suntec where JH and I had sushi! Yumyum! Sadly, the place were so packed with students who had early release from teachers' day celebrations and we had to sit outside where we couldn't get food from the conveyor belt and neither could we order food from the computer. We ended up with slow service and an unsatisfactory meal. We craved for our sushi so much that we went to eat Sakae buffet again today, Sunday! Hahaha. Sushi twice over the 3 days. Tsktsk. We're such sushi addicts. After that was abit of shopping where we bought a new shirt for Beauty, a cup of Fuji apple jelly each and strawberry tartlets. Went back to my place and spent the rest of the afternoon watching Meet Dave on dvd. The show was soooo funny, we laughed like siao. Eddie Murphy is just such an expressive and charming comedien, who isn't afraid to act silly. Lol!
Su-shi, glorious su-shi! Yumyumyumyum! (think Cookie monster)
The sushi monsters! And my pretty, diabetes-inducing, swirly lolly.
Why - Nicole Nordeman
I know it isn't Easter and this is totally random but listening to this song (and watching the video) makes me sad. Especially when I'm currently depressed. Sunday nights are the most depressing times for me because it's Monday soon. Then again, perhaps life is always unfair and depressing but God will make a way, like in the case of Jesus. I dunno. I can only hope. I'm not even Christian/Catholic but this song just really touches me. =((
Sunday, August 31, 2008
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
Teenage angst ♥
Alex and I waited early in the morning at 7 in the Mrt station only to find out that Sy was still sleeping. I felt damn sian having to travel all the way to the West, and I was wearing inappropriate attire so I said I didn't feel like going. Alex says "go lor, up to you" and had no intention of wanting me to stay and so, I left. Next, Sy smses me to scold me and asked "why you ps Alex?".
Countless times previously, she didn't turn up for our outings and that's not ps-ing. Me travelling all the way here then felt damn sian and travelled all the way back for nothing, and I get scolded. She was the one who woke up late while I at least made the effort to drag myself out of bed, and I'm the one who got scolded.
The previous night, we had some really nice talk with each other and the 3 of us shared some extremely personal stuff, and all of a sudden, Sy asked "would you rather be called selfish or unreasonable?" in a sarcastic attempt to bring up the past event. Both of them had said they rather be unreasonable, and since Alex sides Sy as well, I have nothing to say. I was never given a chance to explain my side of the story and even if I was, judgements of me were already made and prejudices already etched in their minds. And now she brought up the time I ps-ed her to meet Jh. Truth was, we were travelling home with our OG and I told her I going separately coz I have to meet him first. I was isolating myself, not her. Then I realised there was no other East people so I said I'll travel with her but she refused. She said she didn't mind and now she brought it up to scold me about "ps-ing" all the time again.
Next she says I took so long to return her LOTR vcds. Thing is, we didn't have the opportunity to meet up previously and when we did, I forgot about it. So when she mentioned it ytd, I brought it today to return and guess what? She said and I quote, "And please, my lotr you borrow how long le. Not say it's 1kg heavy. And if i didn't mention it ytd, you also won't be thinking of returning. No need to return, just keep it. I lost it for at least 2 years". Guess what? I'm not only selfish, I'm now a thief too!
Lewis was called a liar, a cheater, all for nothing and he's upset and she would go scold Justin for saying all that, when they were 8 year-olds who cannot think sensibly. I don't understand why she being an 18 year-old with supposed mature thoughts can say such hurtful things and ironically call others selfish. I mentioned that she calling me selfish was something unfair and hurtful especially when I never had the chance to explain myself and she said "I just mentioned it in the passing, you want to be sensitive, so be it." And then she says, "Your other friends more important to you what. We are just the type you no one to stick to that's why you come". (This is totally random and uncalled for...)
Wow. So you just mentioned me being selfish in the passing arh? You just say I always ps you all in the passing arh? Oh. I nearly took these hurtful words for real. Silly me. Me being a superficial friend is also a passing remark? I guess that past 7 to 11years of friendship meant absolutely nothing to you. The times we hung out and played and talked and laughed was me being there coz I didn't have other friends. The times we shared family problems and lent each other a listening ear, giving each other advices and consoling each other was me sticking my noses into other people's businesses. Us sharing personal stuff and opinions last night was just me trying to dig up your dirty little secrets and inner thoughts, so I can blackmail you guys in future. Mwa-ha-ha-ha.
I don't understand why you just can't put yourself in my shoes and just see for yourself how hurtful and unnecessary the words were. And that you may not be right all the time. But no, that is something you'll never see, and never admit to. You seriously blamed me for everything possible today. Condemn me for global warming and terrorism, won't you? You said I can just save my messages for my "darling" and yep, I'm not going to reply anymore. Not because I'm saving messages but because I know that no matter what I say, nothing will get into your head. Maybe only the negative parts, but you'll never register what I truly want to say. You'll forever think you're right and I'm wrong, wrong, wrong and should be condemned for my utter selfishness, for stealing vcds and for my fake, insincere friendship.
I don't know how strong 7 years of friendship is to undergo another fight like this.
I always thought these were best friends. Opps. It's wishful thinking on my part.
Monday, August 4, 2008
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥