HER LURFES ♥
Beauty. the schnauzer =))
Piggy Slave
Her family & friends
Strawberries!!!!!
Quincy the bass
My laptop
Omnia!
HER WANTS ♥
shopping spree!
guitar strap
HER MEMORIES ♥
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
May 2009
CHATTERBOX ♥
DARLINKS ♥
+ 101 Schnauzers
+Abigail
+ Adele
+ Adlin
+ Alex
+ Cherlyn
+ Davis
+ Denise
+ Eugene
+ Fizah
+ Gloria
+ Grace K.
+ Isebelle
+ Izhar
+ Jasmine
+ Jing Fang
+ Jia Ying
+ Jing Huang
+ Jonathan
+ Jolie
+ Khyrul
+ Mabel
+ Maggie
+ Michael
+ Michelle
+ Ningyi
+ Sharon
+ Siew Cheng
+ Steph
+ Vanessa
+ Weitian
+ Xinni
+ XinYi
+ Yiwei
+ Zhihan
+ Zuwei
+ Barbarian Dict.
Teenage angst ♥
Alex and I waited early in the morning at 7 in the Mrt station only to find out that Sy was still sleeping. I felt damn sian having to travel all the way to the West, and I was wearing inappropriate attire so I said I didn't feel like going. Alex says "go lor, up to you" and had no intention of wanting me to stay and so, I left. Next, Sy smses me to scold me and asked "why you ps Alex?".
Countless times previously, she didn't turn up for our outings and that's not ps-ing. Me travelling all the way here then felt damn sian and travelled all the way back for nothing, and I get scolded. She was the one who woke up late while I at least made the effort to drag myself out of bed, and I'm the one who got scolded.
The previous night, we had some really nice talk with each other and the 3 of us shared some extremely personal stuff, and all of a sudden, Sy asked "would you rather be called selfish or unreasonable?" in a sarcastic attempt to bring up the past event. Both of them had said they rather be unreasonable, and since Alex sides Sy as well, I have nothing to say. I was never given a chance to explain my side of the story and even if I was, judgements of me were already made and prejudices already etched in their minds. And now she brought up the time I ps-ed her to meet Jh. Truth was, we were travelling home with our OG and I told her I going separately coz I have to meet him first. I was isolating myself, not her. Then I realised there was no other East people so I said I'll travel with her but she refused. She said she didn't mind and now she brought it up to scold me about "ps-ing" all the time again.
Next she says I took so long to return her LOTR vcds. Thing is, we didn't have the opportunity to meet up previously and when we did, I forgot about it. So when she mentioned it ytd, I brought it today to return and guess what? She said and I quote, "And please, my lotr you borrow how long le. Not say it's 1kg heavy. And if i didn't mention it ytd, you also won't be thinking of returning. No need to return, just keep it. I lost it for at least 2 years". Guess what? I'm not only selfish, I'm now a thief too!
Lewis was called a liar, a cheater, all for nothing and he's upset and she would go scold Justin for saying all that, when they were 8 year-olds who cannot think sensibly. I don't understand why she being an 18 year-old with supposed mature thoughts can say such hurtful things and ironically call others selfish. I mentioned that she calling me selfish was something unfair and hurtful especially when I never had the chance to explain myself and she said "I just mentioned it in the passing, you want to be sensitive, so be it." And then she says, "Your other friends more important to you what. We are just the type you no one to stick to that's why you come". (This is totally random and uncalled for...)
Wow. So you just mentioned me being selfish in the passing arh? You just say I always ps you all in the passing arh? Oh. I nearly took these hurtful words for real. Silly me. Me being a superficial friend is also a passing remark? I guess that past 7 to 11years of friendship meant absolutely nothing to you. The times we hung out and played and talked and laughed was me being there coz I didn't have other friends. The times we shared family problems and lent each other a listening ear, giving each other advices and consoling each other was me sticking my noses into other people's businesses. Us sharing personal stuff and opinions last night was just me trying to dig up your dirty little secrets and inner thoughts, so I can blackmail you guys in future. Mwa-ha-ha-ha.
I don't understand why you just can't put yourself in my shoes and just see for yourself how hurtful and unnecessary the words were. And that you may not be right all the time. But no, that is something you'll never see, and never admit to. You seriously blamed me for everything possible today. Condemn me for global warming and terrorism, won't you? You said I can just save my messages for my "darling" and yep, I'm not going to reply anymore. Not because I'm saving messages but because I know that no matter what I say, nothing will get into your head. Maybe only the negative parts, but you'll never register what I truly want to say. You'll forever think you're right and I'm wrong, wrong, wrong and should be condemned for my utter selfishness, for stealing vcds and for my fake, insincere friendship.
I don't know how strong 7 years of friendship is to undergo another fight like this.
I always thought these were best friends. Opps. It's wishful thinking on my part.
Monday, August 4, 2008
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥