HER LURFES ♥
Beauty. the schnauzer =))
Piggy Slave
Her family & friends
Strawberries!!!!!
Quincy the bass
My laptop
Omnia!
HER WANTS ♥
shopping spree!
guitar strap
HER MEMORIES ♥
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
May 2009
CHATTERBOX ♥
DARLINKS ♥
+ 101 Schnauzers
+Abigail
+ Adele
+ Adlin
+ Alex
+ Cherlyn
+ Davis
+ Denise
+ Eugene
+ Fizah
+ Gloria
+ Grace K.
+ Isebelle
+ Izhar
+ Jasmine
+ Jing Fang
+ Jia Ying
+ Jing Huang
+ Jonathan
+ Jolie
+ Khyrul
+ Mabel
+ Maggie
+ Michael
+ Michelle
+ Ningyi
+ Sharon
+ Siew Cheng
+ Steph
+ Vanessa
+ Weitian
+ Xinni
+ XinYi
+ Yiwei
+ Zhihan
+ Zuwei
+ Barbarian Dict.
Feeling lost and emo-ish. Le Sigh. ♥
I have realised that I've been starting my blog entries with "First of all"s (for the past 3 entries in fact) so I have decided not to do so for this entry. Perhaps I'm not that good with my language as some of you guys may think. I have a very
I'm suddenly feeling emo because I've had a fight with SY just recently. Previously, I had no qualms with applying for FASS simply because I've got my "best friends" with me. Best friends whom I had wanted to stay with in a small rented apartment, whom I would share my bed and closet with. Now, I haven't been talking to SY much, and neither Alex. Why, I do not know. Perhaps Alex has heard SY's side of the story and has decided to ignore my sms, or perhaps she's far too busy to reply. Writing this makes me sound like some deranged teenager but seriously, I feel quite upset now. In fact, I'm more of pissed off with SY rather than sorry I quarrelled with her.
All I did was sms SY one fine day coz I thought I should start making arrangements for my NUS medical checkup. And this is how our conversation went...(Words in Italic are my own comments)
Me: Hey! You wanna go medical checkup with me on my day, since ours are only 1 day apart?
SY: I have driving theory test on the 15th (which is my scheduled day for the checkup). So can only go on my own day on 16th.
Me: What time is it?
SY: It's at 2 plus. You come on my day lo.
Me: We can go before your test. Or after? What time does it end?
SY: Pls la. Who knows how long it lasts. Later i late for test how. Plus i also wanna revise. After my test go there they closing le. Why can't you come on 16th? You got nothing on what. (Why the fark she suddenly became so angry, I do not know.)
Me: What makes you think I got nothing on that day? (Which is true, coz I've got tuition with Trevor then). Thing is, if you come on my day and they don't allow, you can go next day on your actual checkup day. If I go on your day and they don't allow, I won't be able to go on my actual day. Forget it..
Now read her reply. She says, and I quote.
SY: Thanks ar. Like that you just want someone to pei you what. If you got something on you'll say it like from the start. Stop being so selfish can..(wtf?!) You only think of you missing your day but not of me wasting my time if they dun allow right?
Me: I said if they don't allow what. If they don't allow, you can go on the next day. If they don't allow us to go on a diff day, what can I do? Change your surname arh? (Our checkup days are scheduled based on our names alphabetically) You're the unreasonable one calling me selfish for nothing (absolutely nothing, seriously) and throwing your temper. Did I even step on your toes?
And our conversation ends there. I admit my tone and choice of words had been harsh but she started flaring up first. I was so super mad and hurt that she called me selfish, that I sent her that before I could reconsider my words. But you know what? I know no matter how I explain in my reply, she'll still think she's damn right. Hers is such a personality so headstrong, she'll never realise she's the selfish one ironically. She's selfish for not even wanting to do something for a friend, to accompany her friend (especially since she'll be doing her checkup as well, unless they don't allow her going a day early), and selfish for calling me selfish and not considering my feelings. I'm not going to sound like some emotional lesbian getting hurt over insensitive comments. I know we've been best friends for life and will probably get over this the next time we meet (I hope at least) but right now, I'm just
Other upsetting stuff going on in my life is that I quarelled with my sister again (which isn't something new) and since my parents are off to Thailand, I'm stuck with her. The walls are much better company because we're both not talking to each other either. Only difference is that when she does talk to me, she's soooo rude. Also, Michael's facing family probs and may be staying in HK for good, and talking to him about it is making me depressed as well. But anyways, Happy Birthday to Niko and Michael! (The font's gray coz I'm emo-ing right now. Using a bright, happy colour would ruin my theme for this entry.) Now I'm potentially short of another friend in NUS (I'm not saying I'm no longer friends with SY though). Sigh. Why is life such a pain in the butt?
Think happy thoughts. Think happy thoughts, Emy.
Saturday had been barbeque with the Interact Exco and junior Exco so it had been fun catching up with them, except we hardly talked to the juniors. Meeting up with the seniors in the new future so I hope it'll be a better outing. It was also a happy day cos JH (there your name in pink again) treated me to Swenson's cos it was our 11th month anniversary. Black pepper seafood pasta and banana split sundae (choc peanut buttercup, thin mint and strawberry scoops) = yummy. Thank you loads for the treat! Tomorrow would be outing with JY and Maggie after tuition with Trevor and I can't wait to meet them. Probably going to sing then to Astons' for dinner...and that'll be loads of cheering up (although they're unaware of my emo-ness) =))
I don't want to rant so I shall end my entry here.
May tomorrow be a better day.
P.S I think my blog entries are dry without pictures, so to fit with today's emo theme, I have chosen to insert random emo pics throughout the entry. When I Googled for emo images, I somehow found lots of emo gay pics. Now that is disturbing. Perhaps this opens up another topic for me to write about... i.e homosexualism? Then I wouldn't just be blogging about my everyday life and brush up on my writing skills by discussing actual topics. Maybe that would make me controversial and I may become a blogger, and not just someone who blogs. Now that's a hilarious thought, especially with my inadequate writing skills. I crack myself up sometimes...P.P.S This entry solely acts as an outlet for my frustration and the entry today had been extremely personal, and was written during an angsty-teenager phase so I don't want it to affect or upset anybody. These inner (and somewhat negative) thoughts of my friendship with Alex and SY were not written in an objective condition and I assure you, my other inner thoughts of them are very, very positive. I know they do not read my blog (or hardly anyways), so guys, please please, I beg of you, do not blab the contents to either of them because I do not want this to jeopardise our friendship. Thank-you-very-much.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥